I was messaging with a trainer who is helping me get back on the exercise train. Yup, like millions, the New Year is bringing with it exercise. The interesting part is that it was not a New Years Resolution. I have been planning for the last 2 months to improve my health and been doing small things and then this trainer, Michelle, had an offer that seems like it would work with my lifestyle and obligations.
I told Michelle that I tend to binge. I will do something for awhile and then fall off the wagon. I also said that I think I binge because I like the variety of doing one thing for awhile, but then get bored and want to do something else. She talked about shifting from the binge to making a lifestyle choice and of course she is right.
Now, as I thought about how I binge, I was feeling a little bad that I don't commit, but then it came to me that maybe I was looking at it the wrong way. Maybe I do really like variety. Maybe I need to stop calling it a binge and change my language.
I realized that what I do is try different activities and enjoy them until I am ready to move onto something new. I keep recommitting to physical health. I don't fail at physical health when I stop jogging as winter approaches. I stop because I don't like the cold and then I do something else.
The truth is that I am SO committed to my health that I keep trying and never give up. I am SO committed that even though I ate extra desserts over the holidays, I am not giving up on healthy food, and I am recommitting to healthy eating.
This little shift in language changed my perspective on past activities. They were not failures because I didn't keep going to the gym or jogging or eating cleaner food. They are evidence of my ongoing ability to recommit.
How can I improve what I am doing? I know that when I get bored with an activity, I stop and it takes awhile to find my next thing I want to do. To improve and decrease the time in between, I need to plan ahead for the eventual boredom or change in weather or whatever. I need to have my next activity ready in the wings. That next activity might actually be the motivation to finish what I am doing now so I can get started on the new thing. It gives me something to look forward to.
So from now until the end of February I am doing a new workout program with Michelle called Transformation 20. I know it's going to kick my butt, but I also know I am looking forward to it. I am also going to start looking at what I will do after, so I am ready for the next steps in my commitment to my health.